Start Saving Me

I had the most amazing weekend with Zachary in Columbus. I arrived at Ft. Benning to pick him up at 8 AM Saturday morning to be briefed. Then, we waited for what seemed like hours, even though it was only 25 minutes for them to march to us. Seeing his face for the first time was unbelievable. I can't believe how much he's changed during basic. What amazes me more is that while he's changed so much, nothing between us has changed. He's still at the core the man I fell in love with, and he loves me the same way too. We still drive each other crazy with our little quirks, but he's still my Zachary, he's just Private First Class Wight :)

We had an amazing time though. We went to dinner, shopping, and just spent time together. I can never take for granted a moment I spend with him because I get so few. Every moment I spent in his arms, every kiss, I play it over and over again. I feel like we didn't have enough time to talk about everything.

I almost completely lost it on the way home. Walking away from him will never get easier. Knowing what he's going through mentally and physically. Knowing that it's even harder for him to leave me behind while he's following his dreams. He loves me so completely and deeply, it blows me away. I can just see in his eyes how much he cares for me, and most of the time we don't have to say a word to know what the other is thinking.

I had a moment, while he was curled up sleeping looking so peaceful, that this was going to be the next four years of my life. Spending time with him when the army allows it, I'll be number two. I wasn't sure if I wanted to stay. It would be so much easier to just walk away, find someone who will be here for me all the time. In the moment I had that thought, I absolutely took it back. Looking at him laying there I knew this was right. I know I'm strong enough. I have my dreams to pursue to and in the end our road will lead us to what's right. While we're apart, we're making a future together. We're doing separetly all the right things that will make our life better when he's done with the army.

I can't believe how deeply in love with him I am. I never thought this would happen so soon. I'm so thankful.